Jan, I seriously doubt that she counts on my love for her. In fact, she's rejected it.

My memories are in a special box in my heart but sometimes, it gets kind of active in that box and it flips open. For some reason, I've never allowed it to consume me. My heart is alot more sensitive to my grandsons, though. I've given up much for their well being and like I said, I live for the day that one of them will realize that they don't have to take on their mother's problems as theirs. ... But we'll see...

In the meantime, I have three sons and seven grandkids I can dote on.