My therapist keeps saying that I am very dissociative. Im not sure that I am. I feel that my mind is very escapist. I live on the fringes in my desire to be all here. Is that dissociation? I think its voluntary. But its like if everyone is 100% in there abilty to be all here and feel and experience everything around them, then I can occationally live at 75% and even 50% without anyone noticing. I guess I usually think of dissociation as something different where its a momentary feeling that you arent in your skin or something. I feel like mine is a more emotional numbness and dullness that doesn't want to deal with life. Is that more depression? Well. I guess that is enough questions.