I hate that every time I feel overwhelmed by things, I feel like I need to text my T and tell her. I seriously doubt she really wants to hear about all the horrible things I think about and experience, even if she says she is okay with me telling her everything. Even if I feel bad for wanting to contact her, I do it anyway, and even though she is really understanding and reassuring, I still feel bad. I feel like I interrupt her life and get in the way, even though she has told me that she wouldn't respond if she didn't want to, or if she didn't feel up to it. I just can't help but be afraid that eventually I will do too much or be too much and she will finally give up on me. There are times I feel like it's just around the corner, and times where I go to appointments scared that she will terminate me even though she hasn't given me any real reason to believe that.

I just wanted to rant for a minute because I feel like a terrible client and way too needy.