I can no longer safely assume anything I hear or I see is what is happening. I no longer trust myself to say anything that won't piss everyone off. Everyone in this house every weekend tells me what I heard and saw never happened. This is why I sit in a room at the end of the hall, trying not to interact with anyone and cause more problems. I realized today that I don't even enjoy reading anymore, because I can't relax enough to give a damn what's happening in any of the books I read.