My boyfriend just became my fiancé. It's been a long time coming, and I love him more than anything in this world, but I'm panicking. I feel like I'm not a whole person. I'm so deeply depressed so much of the time, and so insane during my manic periods. How can I sentence him to a lifetime of dealing with this? And children? How can I raise children? There are so many periods when I can't even take care of myself. I'm so often extremely suicidal. What if one day I can't control it anymore and I hurt myself? How can I do that to my husband and children? I just don't think I'm fit to be a wife and a mother, and I don't know if he understands what he would be taking on by marrying me. How an I do this to him? I"m so afraid