Hey Lone Soldier. If anything, you probably like me, I wouldn't know happiness if it struck me in the face, I don't think I've ever smiled or been happy my entire life. Ever since I can remember it's been mechanical and cold, and everything that happens that is bad, I feel I've had a hand in it somehow and this is my deserved punishment. I feel for you, this is terrible. times 10.

I agree, knowing that others are going through the same thing doesn't help. Most of the time it makes me feel guilty, because I'm always convinced what I'm feeling is nothing compared to the pain others go through.