Glad to have been of service. (That was sarcastic BTW.)

There's nothing wrong with whining. It's when you whine and then refuse to do anything about it that's a problem.

Why come to as support site at all if all you're going to do is cry poor me and ignore/hurt everyone who tries to help?

Could it be because despite all you say about not wanting to care you actually want help but are simply trying to keep up appearances?

Perhaps you simply enjoy wallowing in self pity?

Or maybe you just enjoy the attention acting like this brings you?

Why do you do what you do?