"Day #19

I'll make it short today.

I feel hurt, so today I am going to just say:

I am still breathing, I woke up this morning, I will try to eat something and not get angry at my nurse again. I am tired most of the time and sleep a lot. I am afraid a lot. I am in pain a lot. I feel lonely a lot.
This is the raw reality of my Now.

I want to write all these things about why I feel hurt and why it hits me on a very deep level, but well, I neither have the energy nor the desire to explain myself. If right now, being in the position I am in, some people think its important to tell me that I am too self-involved, then I don't know if I should laugh or cry. Well today it made me cry.

I hope you are all well, have a great start into this new week.

Much love,
A"