do you ever find yourself wanting to just give up?? but some stupid 'obligation' keeps you stuck here.

• Easter - can't do anything dumb or it will wreck the kids Easter forever.
• Birthday coming, can't do anything or her birthday will be a bad reminder.
• Kid has five AP tests coming up - can not let my issues derail her.
• Mother-in-law dying/died - not the time to think about yourself.

I am tired. I am tired of "hanging on" for all these stupid reasons. I am tired. I feel dead emotionally. I just would really prefer that this world be over.