i have struggled with depression for 20 years trouble is i also struggle with taking meds can't say any have made me feel well i take them for a while then stop i know the drs would say take them but why when they make me feel awful, i have done therapies of all types and i'm stuck in the dilemma of wanting to get well but at times i feel i've become institutionalised with this illness .i sometimes feel i'm scared of getting well as i'd have to face the world with its stress and discrimination yet i am so frustrated with my life i also live with the fear of relapsing into a severe depression which stops me making changes,some people would say look after yourself and stay as i am with my limitations some would say feel the fear... i'm really stuck with this one any ideas