HI sadeyes...........i used to bruise and hit myself, even on my face. I hit myself either with objects or my own fists. After no SI-ing for many years I've circled back around and rather 'enjoy' when I suddenly get bruised in real life. It brought back that feeling......however, now I wished others did it to me. I want that more than to do it to myself. I know I sound creepy, guess I'm sharing this so you know you're not the only one.....