Well one of my very brief topics for this wednesday with t, is going to be one she mentioned before the end of session, and of course, I had to be a clown about it, because thats one of my defense mechanisms, she took it well, she laughed also, but told me to think about it for next session , so I have, this is what she said last session, and how I responded.

T: Sweepy, I value our relationship, but we both know that there is an elephant in the room right now, when it comes to disclosing your feelings with me, especially the vulnerable ones.

Me: Are you saying you sense we have an elephant in our room (with a serious face)

T: Yes , I am sensing we have an elephant in our room, and we both sense it.

Me: OMG t, do you want some of my antipsychotics lmao lol lol lol lol lol

T: SWEEPY !!!!!!! lol lol lol, lets get back to serious business here, you know what I meant.

Me: I am sorry t. I know what you meant, I get nervous when you talk about feelings.

T: Ok, we will talk about this next session.

On wednesday I will tell her, that I dont want any animals in our room, and I will try my best to rid the room of them, by trying to speak up when I am feeling any vulnerable emotions right then and there, and we can discuss where might those feelings be coming from, because she is really working hard with me, and we both deserve a chance at this relationship.