ok so me and my guy have been together for almost six years and i find myself thinking selfishly when it comes to him and our relationship, my main concern is the fact he's in a band. he has been in this band for three years and i couldn't be more sick of it. i feel bad because this is him pursuing his dream, and the band itself has done far more than what anyone thought they would and are in a good spot to get picked up majorly. but it hasn't happened yet. i feel bad because for about the last year and half of going to all his shows and dealing with all the b.s. that comes with it im completely fed up and sick of his band... im sick of hearing the music non stop, hearing my boyfriend talk about band non stop, having to arrange my scedule to for his band and shows, having to cancel/change things/plans i want to do with us together because of last minute show changes....overall just sick of our relationship being placed in the background for this band. the way i see it i was there before the band why am i being but aside.

here recently there has been things happening that could mean the end of the band is coming realitivly soon ( like a year or two or less ,band mbrs having kids and getting married and not having the time or money for it anymore) and i find myself extremely happy at this thought and vaguely counting down the days until this happens...i have been more than supporting for his dreams of being in this band and it going somewhere but honestly its caused so many problems/fights and issues with our relationship that im sick of it. i feel like our relationship isn't a priority. i have expressed my concerns and oppions to my bf and he says he understands where im coming from but does nothing really to make me feel better, and has even said im unsupportive, when i have done everything for him to support him in this ( been to every show, make sure he has all his equipment at the end, drive him and his friends/ band home when they drink, been in videos when i didn't want to,helped him put things in order, recording things, ran merch when no one would, anything you can think of to help i have done, canceled plans with my family/ my friends for his shows...but im so unsupportive)

so is it selfish of me to seriously want and hope for the end of his band/ his dream so that he and i can move forward and get back to our lives and the things i want to do, not all the time but i feel im owed a good long time period for the things and places i want to go/do????? because i feel like a terrible girlfriend/ person...i have felt very neglected for most of this experience and yet i try to be positive and supportive but im at my wits end.