I know I miss apathy, not sure how helpful that is... Apathy gave the illusion that I was ok, strong, unphased... But it was in actuality all because I just didn't care about anything 'bills haven't been paid' don't care 'bikes been stolen' don't care etc etc... I had neither the will or energy to think about stuff that would normally propel me into action.

I personally think it's just a part of the cycle.. Apathy is what happens when you've been so worn down by anxiety, anger, depression in general that your brain has enough and shuts down all those emotions that were driving you up the wall.