a lot of panic and anxiety right now. my bank acct is minus money in it. so i have no money for anything. i made a mistake and spent 500 something dollars on college classes and told no one and my dad is mad because he thinks im not ready for school. i dont think im ready either thats why i backed out of it. now im waiting for a refund that idk if its gonna even come to me. i dont have enough money to pay for this therapist. its like 24 dollars and i dont have ANY money. im minus in my account. i dont even have that much gas in my car so i cant go anywhere.

on top of that im nervous about this therapist. i see him tomrrow (im just gonna have to use my debit and pray it goes through) and pay the bank back later. next month when i get my disability check in.

im hearing voices and music right now. and my paranoia is kinda bad. i keep thikning the police are gonna come after me. and special agents and fbi. and lock me up.