Thank you Rose, Peach. It probably is some kind of an association thing.

I noticed that a lot of it depends on how much sleep I get the night before, and if it was quality sleep. Doc has me on Ativan, 1 mg at night. Five nights to start, with a scrip for 15 if I need it. I hope I don't need it, but it's nice to know it will be there in case I do. Not for nothing, but I'd been complaining to her about my sleep issues for years, and the best she could come up with was Sonata, as Ambien scares me, or melatonin, which makes me dizzy and light-headed. So I've been getting by with Benadryl, but that was not enough.

Finally I just told her what my old internist had me do with some leftover Ativan from major back spasms: One per night, three nights in a row, see how you feel after you are rested.

The nausea isn't so bad if I'm rested, so I'm glad my doctor finally heard me.

Maybe some of this nausea is me turning it on myself for not having seen the kind of man he really is. He always seemed stronger and smarter, and maybe he thinks he is being strong and smart. But hiding from pain and trying to distract yourself from it pretty much always comes back to bite you in the butt later.

Ah, well, no sense thinking about it right now. Too much work to do, and it's a nice day to take a walk on my break.

Thanks again.