I have been suicidal numerous times, been to the psych ward twice. My new pdoc asked me just today if there was a chance that I would do something, and I said "yes - not today, but I can't promise I won't".

The only one that has ever known that I was going to go further was my T. No one else had any clue.

My method was pills but I have always known that if I get into SI ing too much, sort of like a trance, it would lead to far worse. I scare myself then.


Courage is fear that has said its prayers.
Dorothy Bernard