Personally I would just move on....I know you formed an attachment but what she sees is how to get you "well" regardless of the cost----her primary goal is I believe monitoring for and eliminating psychosis even if it makes your quality of life poor---ie extreme sedation etc. She's not looking to make you feel happy or anything like that but instead to cut out the psychosis. It's one type of approach and it probably works for some people but I honestly think the most effective treatment is finding something that gets you to a level of function you are comfortable with ie you might have some symptoms but they are tolerable and you might have some sedation but you aren't sleeping 16 hours a day either you know. If the meds just magically work then great but even for me the didn't eliminate everything initially and I was not willing to put up with lacatation etc as a symptom in order to progress to an even higher level of meds...so that's why I always promote something kind of intermediate because it worked well for me---you don't want to be hospitalized once a month but you don't want to be a zombie because of high med levels either...