(((rts))) I'm so sorry you're in that place. I wish I could help. I'm in really bad shape at the moment, myself, and find it hard to be as supportive as I would like. I really like you, rts, you have become a good friend, and I hate it that you are feeling so anxious.

neutrino, I was thinking of you today - I was teaching in your 'hood. (well, not your 'hood exactly, I guess, but in your end of the world.) For me, there's certain music that can act as a de-stressor - anything written before 1600, almost, works for me. But as I wrote above, I'm super stressed at the moment, so I really shouldn't be giving advise on de-stressing....