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Originally Posted by newtus
i wish i never had schizophrenia. i wish i never gone to therapy or psychologist as a little girl. i wish it was never discovered in me. i wish i wasnt on disability. i wish i wasnt involved in any of thi s stuff.
my life is ruined forever. it will never be the same. its never been any different but it sucks.
thats a good incentive to kill myself.
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I don't think there is anyone who is like yay sz or even psychosis. If it wasn't discovered what would have happened differently? Would you have done better in school without treatment? If you didn't have disability would you be working to support yourself? These things are meant to help you....if you don't want them nobody is forcing you to take the money or the help. However there are minimums----anything lethal or illegal and you don't get that choice...but that applies to everyone no just you not just the MI
Did you ever read the center cannot hold by elyn saks...she had this during school too but she kept trying things until she found something that worked...in her case psychodynamic therapy with a pdoc and some meds---clozapine even...there are no limits on you because of the illness...she won a genius award and is a lawyer, psychologist and professor. If you put up some sort of block on your goals because somebody labeled you then its time to fix that now. There is no reason you can't do whatever you want to... it may take more time or more effort but you can still get there and it will mean even more to you when you do get there...