Hello UM. You said it--tired. Tired of the battle. Tired of the struggle. Tired of this enemy called depression. Tired of the heavy heart. Tired of the emotional pain. I feel it too.

One day it just hit me. This monster of MI was not going to win. I will not just give up. Some days it is not only hard to get out of bed, it is even harder to NOT go back to bed.

I am sure your daughter cherishes you. And you know that as a father you will ALWAYS be needed.

I guess we both need to catch and hold on tightly to determination. Right now it seems to be my best weapon to do battle with.

And what I see in you is not some obligation, but love for others. It has just gotten mixed up in a jumble with the negative emotions.

So take a few deep breaths when needed. Relax in a cozy chair when needed. Take some "me" time. Take some time just for you. You truly do deserve it.