i cried in front of T today. he said i seem to be feeling fragile. i feel sad. i keep having intrusive memories of former T. idk why im thinking about him. it feels like it happened to a different person. not to me.

but i felt special cuz T called out of work today but still wanted to see me so he came in just to see me. im glad he likes to meet with me and im not just a job to him. i told him how much i appreciate his help and that it means a lot to me.

i have no energy and need a distrction. so i guess im gonna watch something