I feel so tired. It's ten o clock in here. Really big day. Spent almost my entire day, like about seven hours in doctor appointments...as a student. My back were hurting terribly.
Beside that, in the mean time I had a two hours class.

Today was a day I felt very insecure, like I was jumping from an high altitude without a parashout. It's more a less like this how I feel when I interact with new people, or people I don't usualy interact with and I don't feel safe talking with. They were in fact very nice to me (the ones who talk to me) talking to me like I was someone. Calling my name just to tease me or say something random. From one point of view it's a good thing, but it's such a rush!!
And there is this guy I kind have a crush on...I never talked to him many times, today I did, few few time, but I guess it was the most long conversation we had, and I really think is very nice...I didn't felt nervous.
I guess I talk alot about how I interact to people. I've been felt really lost, without a friendship net. I rely my self, the most I can, on those people I knew from previous years. But I'm getting to understand that I would fit so much better with this people that came to my class this year. I really, really, really want to be friend with some of them, they are much more like me than the people that were in my class the previous three years. Today, for instance, someone told to my old classmates, "you are always talking about that. Don't you know any other thing to talk about?"
Thank you, exactly! I thought to myself, they are always having second intentions conversations, about people from the opposite sex, if you know what I mean.
Maybe I'm not one of the few people that thinks that friendships and fun can come from different things.