When I would cry my father would get very agitated and make me feel worse once he even pulled up a chair and sat down and insisted that I was faking and I was fake crying and told me he was going to sit there the whole time and watch me cry to see how long I could fake it for.he had been drinking beforehand too.I ended up running out of the house and trying to run away but was caught and forced to go back home.I learned from a young age to bottle up my feelings which was never a good idea.its given me trouble in expressing my emotions because of the fear and paranoia that was instilled in me from childhood.