just because those around you are coping, doesn't mean that you are able to. everybody is born different and giving a different set of skills. some people are naturally more resilient. I often wonder what separated me from my sister. she was much more mentally ill than I and spent years hospitalized. how did I get so lucky? developing effective coping skills is learned as well. you can ask family members how they coped and learn from them. try doing what you said, fake it till you make it. whatever works. I tried anything. eventually it was finding the right med and therapy and the magic wand was there. just never give up. take care.