Hi all,

It's been awhile since I've been on this site. Decided to come back because I have an issue that I'd like some advice about. I guess I should start off with some background info. I've already talked about this past issue at length here, but it's been awhile and I doubt anyone remembers it, and I don't want to make people backtrack through my posts. Plus I'm finally sort of getting over the past issue so it kind of embarrasses me how upset it made me back then, I don't even want to read those old posts anymore. Anyway, background info...

About a year ago I met a guy who I had been friends with on an online forum for about 7 years. It was my first time meeting him in real life, but I'd sort of had a crush on him for quite awhile. Long story short, we met, hooked up, and then he left and basically dropped off the face of the earth for awhile without warning. After awhile he tells me he can't do a long distance relationship. That really hurt me. He stayed distant for awhile, but then slowly seemed to start coming back again. Eventually he started talking about coming to see me again. I was totally into the idea but kept asking him when it could happen and he never gave an answer. Eventually, he just stopped talking to me. I texted and called him multiple times but never heard anything back. It's like he just vanished. This happened back in early October. Again, I was really upset. But I eventually did move on.

Now for the issue I need advice about...
Well, sometime around January or February I started to notice this guy that's in a student organization I'm in on campus (a board game club). I'd known him since the start of the school year in August, but it wasn't until that time that I started to develop a crush on him. The crush got stronger as time went on, but I was nervous about making a move and never really had the opportunity to anyway. Finally, on the last Friday of the semester (May 2) I got my chance. He asked me for a ride to a storage unit his parents had rented out for the summer so he could store some of his games there (He lives on campus and walks to the club meetings but knows I drive to them). After I drove him there I drove him back to his dorm. While we were parked outside his dorm and he was saying goodbye, I leaned over and hugged him as best I could in the car, kissed him on the cheek, and then on the lips. I did initiate the kiss but he kissed me back and seemed to be into it.

Problem is, I do want to have a relationship with this new guy. I know I'll have to wait until we're back in school in August, since he lives on the other side of the state and we're both going to be busy over the summer. I just don't know what, if anything, I can do in the mean time. I have his number but we've only texted twice since I saw him last, once initiated by me and once by him. I just can't stop thinking about what happened with the guy from last year, how much that whole ordeal hurt, and how much I'd like to avoid it in the future. I'd known that other guy longer and went a lot further with him than I did with this new guy. Nothing came out of that past situation, so now I worry the same thing is going to happen again. How can I make sure that the new guy knows how I feel about him? That I want to start dating him when we're back in school? How can I get past the insecurities that my past situation has left me with?