Wow I am definitely not alone with this! The only reason I sleep at all is because of the massive amount of meds I take at bedtime, but when I try to nap, I get the rapid pulse/hyperventilating thing. It sucks because I'm so groggy all day from the meds that I feel forced to nap - it just snowballs from there. My biggest issue is getting myself to take those night meds. When they start to kick in, I start to panic like I'm getting a lethal injection. Losing control of my body is terrifying which is what basically happens. I used to have the same reaction to anesthesia, but I've had so much of that, I learned to sort of enjoy the drunk feeling before I'm out for a procedure. So I delay and delay my night meds and now my nights and days are switched up badly. Also the later I stay up, the more manic and GREAT I feel, etc. It feels really out of control and hopeless to be honest.
thx for everyone's responses! I don't feel so alone now. Does anyone else have that kind of med panic stuff? It's hard to describe that part.......