Hello goofy (I like your name! ),

I am in a very similar situation. I am a NEET (Not in Employment, Education, or Training) who rarely goes outside, usually only for groceries. I live with my parents and am unable to hold a job. I am about to try going to a community college, as I have tried and failed 3 times in the past (severe ADHD, anxiety, and other issues), but feel a bit more ready now. I think it will be a great way to be forced from my "comfort zone" (where one could potentially stay forever, unchanging) and get out there, with a boost to start 'living' my life.

It is never too late to go to college. And there are usually classes for many different subjects, for example if you're interested in animals, literature, technology...

If you're anxious about passing, or tests etc, you can try just sitting in on a couple classes, that way you learn the stuff but aren't graded! The greatest thing about classrooms are this: the back row.

It made it tolerable for me to attend, even with my social anxiety. No one stared at me, no one seemed to even know/care I was there! It was peaceful. A baby step in immersing myself into society.
But I failed the class. But I'm gonna try again!!

As I mentioned before, we're pretty much in the same boat. Bipolar, stuck in a rut, hate going outside...

Maybe if you find something you love, or are passionate about, just start doing that, and go from there.

For example, I love writing, and have thought about finishing and publishing a book. That would be my dream career, as I have social anxiety, and writers don't need to mingle much.

I have faith in you, that you will figure out a way to get out of this rut. It may take a while, and it may not. But I know you can do it.

By the way, if you feel you can never 'love yourself', please accept my love and the knowledge that many out there do love and care for you, even if they haven't met you yet.

It is because every human being is precious and unique. We all have our trials, and our gifts (even if we can not see the latter). Make it a challenge to find your gift, and let it blossom.

You can do it.

Take care.