the other girlfriends don't really care about the band, they'll just randomly show up when its convienent for them, but then im expected to do all these things...not sure why, then when i put my foot down and nicely say oh hey i don't want to do merch today or i don't want to do this..., then they assume im in a bad mood or being a b***h???? its very strange and it does make me resentful in ways.
i hope there is a future for us, i feel like we have been through so much why wouldn't therebe a future but who knows. i want to stay with him, i jsut want a little more time for us...just us...without outside influences. i feel like im not really asking alot, but band pressures makes it seem like i am, so sometimes i feel in the wrong and bad but other times i feel like im deserving of time for us