My Australian Shepherd/Labrador mix has bad knees; her angles in them are way off from where they should be. She blew one last spring and did surgery to correct it, now the other one has started to go. The vet thought it could be stabilized by keeping her quiet and on a leash for walks, or confined space, until in her small modified run of a yard space for bathroom breaks, she chased after something. How in that small modified space that happened it beyond me but she is not putting any weight on it now and so know it is completely blown.

We have an appointment this morning with the surgeon to take a look at it; they suggested she be NPO after midnight in case want to go through with the surgery today. She will need to stay overnight if so after the surgery. It breaks my heart that she is so young and that the angle of her knees is so bad to have to go through this again. She will have to be in a crate except for bathroom breaks and very brief walks for months as a part of recovery to keep it stabilized. It is hard since she is such an active dog.

She is also the sweetest dog I have ever had and surgery always makes me nervous for any animal; lost a dog just to anesthesia alone once. I know it is better now but still makes me nervous.

I am trying to tell myself that despite the stress and fear right now that she came out of the first one with flying colors in the end and fully weight bearing after all those months despite how grueling and tiring it was for both of us, bless her though, and hope she can forgive me. I will try to remember she will be able to romp, play, and do all the things she loves to do again when this is all over. it is going to be ok.

Thanks in advance for listening to me vent.