Hi Fox, you are in a process that we all go through. We don't just willy nilly one day and wake up and decide will go get on an AD. You go through a lot of pain and suffering before you can even tell someone. The fact that you told someone and that you are thinking about professional help means you are moving in the right direction in that process. You took a huge first step. We have to go through a lot of pain and suffering before we get to that point as you know. And then deal with the stigma and fear that other people will judge us and all that. Remember that you only have to tell your parents to get professional help and no one else. No one else has to know if you are going to therapy or on meds unless you tell them.

I hate to see someone so young go on an AD. However give everything you have posted in the depression section it is my opinion that you would benefit from one and the benefits would outweigh the risks. If you get professional help you do not have to take a med, it is your choice. Maybe therapy and other things would work. Given your symptoms I would think a med would help you work on things. It would be better to start in the summer when you are not in school. They would probably give you an SSRI or SSNRI. You would hopefully get a thorough evaluation for about 2 hours or more before they let you see a pdoc.