I am sorry for your pain. It is a horrible place to be. You are smart though in the way thaT You said to remember the day she saw the ultrasound. Yes, remember those days, the things she did with your daughter. Don't let this man take away what you had and what you have. You had a mother who loved you. You loved her. She was a good grandmother. He wins if you lose sight of that. Hold those memories close and work through the horror of her murder. Hold onto the life, not the death. I hope this makes sense. I just recently had to figure this out for myself after 5 years without a loved one. I was stuck in the trauma of her death and it took some good therapy to get back to her life and that celebration. Hope this helps. Peace to you.