Fox, please let someone about your suicidal thoughts. I think the teacher would be a good idea because I bet he will want to get some help for you. Telling your friend would make you feel more accepted by her too - - because she will get more of a glimpse into the real you. Something tells me the new information will be well received by her. It will be a relief for you to get it off your chest with someone in real life too. Best of luck with it. Please continue to keep us posted.