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Originally Posted by regretful
I certainly have felt this, and continue to feel anger...a great definition of depression that I heard a long time ago, which I am sure applies to me, is anger turned towards the self. When I'm not angry at the "dis-ease", I'm into full-blown apathy about every aspect of my life. My thinking is that if I just "give-up" then I'm receptive to some changes. Sadly, those changes have not emerged, so I vacillate between apathy and anger...and neither is a good place to be...
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I'm not quite sure why I don't find myself being apathetic. I really do care what goes on in my life and am scared that I won't return to my fully functioning self. Maybe I'm not fully understanding how the apathy applies in your situation. Do you mean apathetic about whether your life ever changes (e.g., job) so that you are happier?
I just find myself angry at myself especially, and angry at other people too. I seem to find more fault with my husband lately because I find so much "fault" in myself with this depression lately. I just hate myself and my life, what I've become with this depression. So far from where I've been in the past and where I want to be in the future - - and soon!