I've compared OCD to a nasty weed in the garden that continues to grow and spread. For me, it's reached the point where every aspect of my life is contaminated with OCD. I have extreme intrusive thoughts and compulsions. They are all related to contamination issues and some of them stem from being sexually abused as a child and other contamination issues result from my life experiences. I have PTSD as well, and both the OCD and PTSD become jumbled up together. It's as if I can't separate the two. A trigger will set off the PTSD and then the OCD kicks in with a monstrous wallop. Not a day goes by that I don't feel like I've had a swift kick in the rear.

I haven't had much success with meds. I do take a med for anxiety, and it does help a tad. The only thing so far that has helped a teeny bit is mindfulness. I'm trying very hard to practice it and have had so far a wee bit of success with it. Hoping with time it will help even more.

Speak to your counselor about meds for OCD. Maybe you'll benefit from them. There is a book I do recommend that can be helpful. Brain Lock by Jeffrey M. Schwartz is the one book that makes the most sense to me.

I really hope you can get a good handle on it because as I said earlier OCD is one ugly, nasty weed that won't stop growing. I'm hoping you'll succeed where I haven't yet.