I am moving my wife across the country, but I will not follow until the end of the summer. We have not yet been apart for this long. It feels like we are ending things, though we both know it's just what we need to do to be able to make this cross-country move. She has spent the last few days saying goodbye to everyone and everything here. I will be going with her for a few days, but I will come back alone. The house will be super quiet and lonely. There is a lot of pressure on both sides: her's to get us established, and mine to keep things together and pack up the household. We live with my mom currently, and it's very stressful. The thought of not having my wife around is daunting. I have a lot of trust to build up again (I don't have the best track record with major changes and staying stable).
I will not be seeing my T for three weeks because of my trip, then her vacation, then our "regularly scheduled programming" falls at the end of the week she returns... I had not asked to have an earlier appointment in time, and now she is booked solid the week of her return. I also feel like a huge burden if I try to contact her outside of session (I know that's my thing, but I can only justify it if there is a major crisis)...
I talked a bit to my wife today, and that helped, but I still feel really disconnected. I guess if things get really bad before or after her vacation, I can still call her.
Does anyone else ever feel so substanceless? I feel like such an alien sometimes.