I'm feeling so sad, alone and hurt. I've been married more then ten years to a great guy and we have been unable to have a baby.

Now if you've ever run across a mom and thought "wow, she should NOT be a mom", I'm the complete opposite of that. I've always thought and dreamed about being a mommy. I've always been told I'm "gonna make a great mom one day". But that day will not come for me- for us.

I have alot of guilt about not being able to provide an heir as my husbands family line will end with him. So we started to look at foster care with the intent to adopt (in my state if you foster then adopt a child the agency pays for the adoption costs) since we knew we didn't have the finances to outright adopt. It looks less and less like fostering will happen and last night my DH (Dear Husband) said he would rather just hold out for an adoption of an infant and if you know anything about adoption it takes FOREVER to get an infant.

Infertility treatments are not an option since again financially we can't afford it.

I am devastated and am really having a hard time getting out of bed.

What's the point of building a successful business if it will only close the moment you die? Why buy a home when there's no one to pass it to? Once you are stripped of having any kind of legacy how in the world do you do anything?

I'm not suicidal (my faith is probably the only thing keeping me from going there) but I really don't know how to live....