. How can I sentence him to a lifetime of dealing with this? you aren't sentencing him to anything. The best part of it is you have no control over what he chooses to deal with in life. If you really think about it you have such good quality that it out weighs bipolar.

How can I raise children? with lots of help. When there is ever a disability more planing is needed. You REALLY have to talk to him about having kids and fiances. And make a plan.

There are so many periods when I can't even take care of myself. Does he know this?

What if one day I can't control it anymore and I hurt myself?

How can I do that to my husband and children? I really think you need to make a plan to help keep you from that close from death.

I just don't think I'm fit to be a wife and a mother, and I don't know if he understands what he would be taking on by marrying me. I don't feel anyone is 'fit' its kinda just you with another title.