These have been the worst 2 plus years ever..... it all started when me and my ex wife separated after having a child which wasn't the cause of the separation.... I got married to young and just couldn't be myself that's why.... After asking for a divorce I was always thinking about what I have done to everyone's lives what I did to my son's life by asking for a divorce.... I pretty much made the decision for my son to live 2 lives and not experience a mom and dad like it should be... I dwelled on the fact that I wouldn't get to see my son everyday I wouldn't get to see him growing up like a family does or experience what a family is. I became very depressed by that and cried so many nights always still do even after the divorce.... I am caught in a state of regret. I became very overweight once being 157 muscular 6 pack guy to 212 everyone makes comments about. I use to get so many comments on my body of how muscular it was and how I got to be like that I would always get ppl in the gym asking me for tips. I started eating my depression. I became an alcoholic drinking on aver 5 nights a week 10 to 16 beers sometimes for weeks straight. Started being late for work missing work. I guess what I am asking help for is that I want my body back I want to become healthy for my son and change my life style I want to become happy again and start living for now and tomorrow rather in the past.. my family is all unhealthy with diabetes bad hearts cancer u name it.. how do I change my health for the better with still this regret on on my shoulders