Junk:

I hate being overwhelmed anddepressed.
Newtus:

sounds like a thought loop to me, lots of anxiety and stuck on it and it's disruptive. The only thing you can do is go in Thursday and keep a mantra in your head to stay calm... maybe something like... "All will be well," I don't know, something meaningvul to you.
Lilly: I'm a writer, too. It comes adn goes. Mostly goes, unfortunately... it's frustrating.
Hello to the new people.
Sorry I'm not on so much recently. My paranoia is way less but my mind is so fractured. I can't seem to stay focused.