I'm always intrigued by my dreams. I sometimes enjoy them so much that I try to force myself back to sleep in order to continue them - but we all know that usually doesn't work.

Last night, however, was a dream I didn't enjoy as much as I could have. The ones I enjoy are fantastical and full of imagery that often doesn't make sense. But the one I had was too real. There were too many people I knew...too many emotions that were legitimate. It felt too realistic; like my brain was trying to trick me into not realizing that it was, in fact, just a dream.

The subject matter was triggering for my emotional state as well. It's been something that I've been dealing with for the past couple of years regarding a particular person. I hadn't thought of him for some time. I thought I was moving on finally.

Is my subconscious trying to sabotage me?