Thank you Rohag.

I think I've been in denial these 3 years. I somehow thought they would come back. Since my dream the other night, I realize that they won't be coming back and they don't care about me at all. I realize that I'm in grieving process. I guess, it's best to view it that way.

I don't have a new family of my own. So at 45, I can't imagine having a family of my own. I'm going to have to accept that I'm going to be alone especially with this depression I have going on.

Maybe things would change.