I know that you're freaking out over this meeting Newtus, and I'm sorry about that But I don't think returning to this T is in your best interests. The likelihood is that in some time in the future you will have another suicidal or homicidal thought and you should be able to talk about this with a T who realises that a thought is just a thought and who can accurately assess whether you are likely to act on it. You've said that this woman overreacts over the slightest thing. You didn't threaten her from my understanding - you just told her about a thought you had i.e. "I thought about doing X to you" NOT "I AM GOING to do X to you". They are very different things IMO. You've also said that she does not give you any coping skills...so how exactly does this T help you??? I know that you are attached but, like with your Mum, the relationship is not beneficial for you. If you are considering injections, then ask new pdoc about it. Don't go back to T and old pdoc and allow yourself to be put on high injections again. You know from last time that pdoc there won't listen to you about dosage or side effects. You need to work out what is in your best interests and go from there. If staying with T is truly what you think is best, then fine, but if you're only staying because you're too scared to find someone new and better, well you deserve better than that Newtus!

to everyone else. Sorry Bean is still struggling Punky. Nice to see you Faerie! And to all the newbies

*Willow*