My twin sister died in my arm 6yrs ago. For a whole I had awful nightmares every night. She would die horrifically a different way every night and it was always my fault. I didn't protect her I wasn't there. In the end I always killed her. So I drank very heavily at for a while it worked but then after a few months I was havin them again and they were worse. I'd wake up in the middle if breakdowns. They aren't as often anymore.

Since urs don't revolve around her dying think of it as a meeting between worlds. If ur spiritual think I it as a meeting place for ur souls. She telling u she ok and will always b there for u.