I don't know if anyone will remember, but I posted a while back that I have/had potential maternal transference towards my English teacher. She's about my dad's age, well-educated and essentially my dream mother because we're so alike (love literature, reading, Shakespeare, similar sense of humour).

Last week I spoke to her after class (something generic, I can't remember), and when she asked how my holiday was, I said it was "crap" and that it was a long story. She told me some lovely things - how she thought I was spectacular, incredible, that people love being around me, etc.
I emailed her later saying thank you for what she'd said, that it had meant a lot; she replied with:

"you come see me anytime you need positive reinforcement"

as well as a quote her great-grandmother said to her:

"you can listen to the opinions of others but you only take notice of the ones you love".

So of course, I ruminated about that for a long time (was she saying she loved me? or I should only listen to my loved ones?) and trying to completely distance myself from reaching out to her at all. Which is completely ridiculous, because all I want to do is sit and drink coffee and just talk to her about anything and everything. Our classroom banter is so much fun and I want nothing more than to have her in my life permanently, as opposed to just my college teacher.

idea what the point of this post is; venting maybe?