Finding that very hard to believe right now... but that's not to say I don't appreciate the sentiment.

Reality is that I clearly am not fine the way I am... I hate the man I am right now, want desperately to change... only person that can do that is me, I am responsible for where I am, and no one but me is going to be able to do anything about it.

Determination, self belief and motivation is a fleeting thing though... like gripping sand in my hands and trying to will it to not seep out.