I'm sorry for what happened to you. I only have 2 close friends. I do have fear that one day I would have none because of my depression and that I keep talking to them about it. But I still believe that there are good people. It's just that we don't connect in deeper levels. Some days when they aren't around, I really feel like there was nobody around who cares for me. I try to still be open to other people. A little bit of some kind of connection.

Right now, I only have one friend where I am living in. Really just one friend because I don't know anyone or been outside to meet others or have the guts to.

I don't know but how about getting a dog? It might help you meet people when you go out for walks. Some dog people are really friendly when you are both talking about your dogs and what they do. It becomes a ice breaker. Also, they can be good companions. Just throwing an idea out there.