I know I don't know you personally, but you seem so level-headed and self-aware. I really admire that about you.

And I can definitely relate about not making sense of T's care or motivations. Therapy is so fickle. It's such its own entity, that it's no wonder it sparks these feelings. But I think they're good. It's better than going in week after week feeling like you are wasting time and money. Even these feelings of negativity or doubt can be signs that something is working and the wheels ARE turning, which is a therapist's intent, right?