Today when I was driving home I thought to myself "I think I'm happy!" I was singing to the radio, in traffic, life was beautiful in that moment. I thought, this is the happiest I've felt in 8 years. In my mind I thanked my T, he is like an angel of god. And, I knew I could let go of him, at least for this moment, I knew it would be painful but I felt so strong. Still do feel like this a bit. Not that all my problems are solved and life is perfect now, but looking back on where I started, I can breathe, I don't want to die. I feel so grateful, so so grateful.