A tangled Web to be spun, marrying when there's an ounce of doubt.
Your happiness needs to be his priority.
It's a relationship, not dictatorship, where you are the exploited conquest. Your health, physical, emotional, spiritual are in grave danger.
Postpone it, at least, until you are certain this is what you want. Why settle for less than you deserve?
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